When my parents were raising me the only bar they wanted to surpass was the one their parents set, and maybe if they were competitive they would also want to make sure they were better than your friends parents... but honestly I am pretty sure thats where it ended. Dont get me wrong my parents were and are amazing and I never did without or felt like they didnt try, but they didnt have the world to compete with.....
As I am aimlessly searching pinterest I see all these wonderful things everyone does, makes, creates! I am both in awe and defeated. I feel like there is no way I can compare to all of that. What, with the cute lunches, the home decor, the fun activities and how to be the perfect mother. WOW I feel so lost! I feel like suddenly I am the worst mother in the world. I do get caught up doing the chores or cooking dinner, and I cant say that I always stop what I am doing to play with Jesse... in fact, more often than not he is entertaining himself. And I feel guilty! I feel like I am horrible and that I dont deserve such a wonderful child. Honestly this is how I have felt....
But then I remember that living in the crazy pinterest world we only SEE what people have done not how they got there, anyone can post that life is perfect and they are the prime example of the "leave it to beaver" mother and family, but the truth is I dont know that anymore than anyone else. I am real. I am me. I am stitched entirely of flaws forgiven by my savior. Every day I hug and love Jesse, I read with him, I talk to him, I cook for him, I play with him... and yet I still feel like it isnt enough... but I have to remind myself that as long as I listen, as long as I am there, and as long as he is happy I am doing my job.
I guess my goal with this blog was to share my feelings about living in a pinterest world. It isnt easy and while I love it for all its glory I have to remind myself that I am one person and I cant be perfect. I will however try my hardest every single day to be the best mom I can be! <3
